Worst thing to recently happen to you?

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Joey_V
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So, in an effort to know each other better - if you would post or at least feel comfortable posting, what was the worst thing that recently happened to you? And how did it change you?
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  • F1nut
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    The water pressure gauge for the well stopped working last night resulting in no water. It didn't change me, but the plumber charged me.
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  • Joey_V
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    I'll start - the worst thing that happened to me recently was I thought I was going to get HIV. It was the closest thing I had encountered to knowing that I was going to die sooner than I'd hope.

    It all started a week after I got back from Vegas. I recall that day very vividly. I was putting in a peripheral line into a patient's neck and I missed the first one, but I got the second one. As I pulled out, I did not sheath the needle properly and I barely nicked my left thumb. I recall feeling a poke and I looked down at my hand. I took off my glove and I saw blood leak out of my thumb. I knew I poked myself at that time. I milked the thumb and washed it quickly.

    2 hours later, we found out that the patient was HIV+ and it was news to the patient as well... I sat there, blown away, first time this ever happened to me. I had to start antivirals right away. I went to Walgreens that night with my wife and I can't tell you the feeling of having to fill an HIV medication script, the way the pharmacist looks at you. And then came the bill - $2000 for a months supply.

    Wow. It wasn't the cost that hit me, I could foot the bill.. but I began to think, if I get HIV, this is going to drain me after a while.

    Then I had to take the medications - it basically wiped me out - I felt like I had the flu and a headache all the time. I couldn't miss a dose, it was round the clock on the dot. I had to get blood tests to check my liver functions to see if I was able to withstand the medication and that was my first hurdle. If my liver function went psycho, I knew I wasn't going to be able to finish the 30 day supply of meds and I knew my chances of getting HIV were going to multiply.

    Fortunately my liver held up and I finished the medications. I had to get tested for HIV at 2 weeks, 4 weeks, 2 months, 3 months, and 6 months. Most of the conversion happens at the 28 day mark, so I was very nervous when I went in for the 1 month check.

    Fortunately, I was negative at 2 weeks and 4 weeks. Then at day 60, I got sick, real sick.... I ended up going to the ER where I saw one of my doctor friends.... had sore throat and a rash, I had a fever to 104 and I was like... dang it, this is the HIV conversion... I'm getting HIV. I knew in the back of my head, this is it. I tested negative for strep and mono... the only thing left was HIV. The test would not come back for 6 hours so I went home... was worried and could not sleep nor nap.

    I was like - if I have HIV, pretty much I can't work because of my line of work. I would probably have to file for workers comp but not sure how long that's going to last. Fortunately, I have long term disability (because my dad always told me to get as much insurance as I possibly could).... so I bullet proofed myself from that aspect. I was thinking, man.... my wife's pregnant.... I'm probably not going to see my kid graduate college.

    It was real sad. Really sad. For the first time, I actually felt very bad.

    Then my friend called... said I tested negative. It was the biggest sense of relief I ever had... there was still a chance I could convert at a later date, but at least on that day, at the 60 day mark - I was still HIV free.

    Months went by, the 3 month mark came by -still HIV free. Then the 6 month and 7 month mark came by - I was still HIV negative. After you test negative at the 6 month mark, you will never turn positive.

    Every test I had found me very nervous and every time I heard the words, "you're hiv negative"... it put a smile on my face.

    Now, all that has passed. I'm more careful now, I cherish as much of the life I got as I can. I try to slow down time, I try to smell the roses if you will. The heat of the sun, the feel of wind blowing down, the smile on my wife's face, my baby clapping.... it's all good man.

    At 31 years old, It changed me forever. Before that time, I was intent on hoarding as much cash as possible. After that, I realized, this is stupid. I'm going to live life. I'm not sure how long I'll be around, things can change just like that...

    ... so the first thing on my bucket list - was to get my audio system.

    So that's how I'm here again, on Polk Forum.

    I haven't told more than a handful of people that story, but for some reason, it's in the past now, and I'm happy to share it.

    Yeah, so that's the worst thing that has ever happened to me. Nothing compares to when someone hands you your death certificate and there's nothing you can do about it. It's a very surreal feeling to know you're definitely on borrowed time.

    Live life - you never get another one. And you sure as heck can't change fate.
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  • Joey_V
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    So yeah, sorry to be sappy, but I just had to get that off my chest. It's good to wake up in the morning, to know you were granted juts another day. When I have a bad day at work or I get a bill for something unexpected, I just think back to that crappy 7 months I had... and I tell myself, this is life. Atleast I'm still above ground.

    You just never know bro... you never know. ;)
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  • headrott
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    Very happy you tested negative for HIV, and you will be with us much longer you thought you would be when you found out the patient tested positive (I feel for the patient, however).

    Glad to have you back on the forum after realising that it's worth spending money on a good audio system. Listening to high fidelity music is one of the most enjoyable things one can do in their life, IMO. :)

    @F1nut, Jesse, it may not have changed you (having your "well go dry"), but it certainly changed your wallet, huh? :p Without the sarcasm, sorry you had to pay to get your water running.

    The "worst" thing (or probably more appropriately stated, most life changing thing) that happened to me (in my life) was when I was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes 31 years ago. We'll put it this way, if one isn't extrememly disciplined before getting type 1 diabetes, one certainly becomes very disciplined quickly; or one dies within 7-14 years (after suffering kidney failure (resulting in dialysis), loss of eyesight, neuropathy, amputation(s), heart disease, etc.)). Type 1 Diabetes is the most dificult thing I have faced in my life, without a doubt. After 31 years, I am still not an expert at it and if I lose focus of what's going on, my bloodsugar will "get me". It's a tough job, but I gotta do it.
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    I couldn't get to the polk site for about 1/2 a day. Dunno why.
  • tonyb
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    Sorry to hear about your scare Joey. Always wondered how you doctors cope with the risks. I imagine though you accept those risks going in, no ?

    Knock on wood, haven't had anything worth mentioning that put a scare in me lately. Then again not much scares me these days.
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  • codyc1ark
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    I slept with a twenty something last week and she won't quit blowing my phone up with calls and texts. Seriously, eight calls and ten texts last night between 11 and 1... Crazy.
  • exalted512
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    My roommate has woken me up for the last 2 weeks in the middle of the night (seriously, right around 3-3:30) because she's being so loud. Quite annoying.
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  • chumlie
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    Went to cook Easter dinner and found out the oven's not working. Crock pot to the rescue.
  • Joey_V
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    headrott wrote: »
    Very happy you tested negative for HIV, and you will be with us much longer you thought you would be when you found out the patient tested positive (I feel for the patient, however).

    Glad to have you back on the forum after realising that it's worth spending money on a good audio system. Listening to high fidelity music is one of the most enjoyable things one can do in their life, IMO. :)

    @F1nut, Jesse, it may not have changed you (having your "well go dry"), but it certainly changed your wallet, huh? :p Without the sarcasm, sorry you had to pay to get your water running.

    The "worst" thing (or probably more appropriately stated, most life changing thing) that happened to me (in my life) was when I was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes 31 years ago. We'll put it this way, if one isn't extrememly disciplined before getting type 1 diabetes, one certainly becomes very disciplined quickly; or one dies within 7-14 years (after suffering kidney failure (resulting in dialysis), loss of eyesight, neuropathy, amputation(s), heart disease, etc.)). Type 1 Diabetes is the most dificult thing I have faced in my life, without a doubt. After 31 years, I am still not an expert at it and if I lose focus of what's going on, my bloodsugar will "get me". It's a tough job, but I gotta do it.

    You're doing well man...
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  • ZLTFUL
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    Joey, you're post makes the water leak we found this past weekend suddenly seem like not so big of a deal. Glad you ended up being OK. I have a friend with HIV who leads a very normal life but he also has accepted that some day, things aren't going to be. Gives you a much different perspective on priorities.

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  • westmassguy
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    2 1/2 months ago, I discovered what Sciatica was. I've heard older people complain about it for years, but didn't really pay any attention. Well I'm one of those older people now. It came on literally overnight. I was nearly crippled by the pain. Getting up in the morning was torture. Standing, sitting or laying down, all caused excruciating pain. All the usual pain killers did nothing. I finally went to a good Chiropractor, and have slowly been getting better. It's still there, but at least I'm functional for the most part.
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  • BlueFox
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    All in all, I can't complain, since any of the worst things that have happened to me fall into 'first world problems'.
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  • drumminman
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    I had a needle stick years ago when the preventive therapy was much cruder with incredibly bad s/e. When talking to the ID docs I was told that the risk for getting HIV if I did nothing was 2% higher than if I took the meds, which were the best available in the mid 90's. My stick wasn't as deep as yours and, after careful consideration, I elected to forgo the treatment. All my tests came back negative.

    Glad you had a happy ending!
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  • gimpod
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    2 1/2 months ago, I discovered what Sciatica was. I've heard older people complain about it for years, but didn't really pay any attention. Well I'm one of those older people now. It came on literally overnight. I was nearly crippled by the pain. Getting up in the morning was torture. Standing, sitting or laying down, all caused excruciating pain. All the usual pain killers did nothing. I finally went to a good Chiropractor, and have slowly been getting better. It's still there, but at least I'm functional for the most part.

    Welcome to my world for the past 30+ years. I don't have Sciatica but I do have a spinal cord injury (C-3 - C-6), At first the pain wasn't too bad but now it's to the point that pain killers (like opiates) just flat out don't work and everything I do is ether excruciatingly painful or ridiculously hard too do.

    All I can say is thank god for music because without it 90% of the time I don't think I'd make it though the day. It gives me a chance to close my eyes and just mellow out. :)
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  • westmassguy
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    gimpod wrote: »
    2 1/2 months ago, I discovered what Sciatica was. I've heard older people complain about it for years, but didn't really pay any attention. Well I'm one of those older people now. It came on literally overnight. I was nearly crippled by the pain. Getting up in the morning was torture. Standing, sitting or laying down, all caused excruciating pain. All the usual pain killers did nothing. I finally went to a good Chiropractor, and have slowly been getting better. It's still there, but at least I'm functional for the most part.

    Welcome to my world for the past 30+ years. I don't have Sciatica but I do have a spinal cord injury (C-3 - C-6), At first the pain wasn't too bad but now it's to the point that pain killers (like opiates) just flat out don't work and everything I do is ether excruciatingly painful or ridiculously hard too do.

    All I can say is thank god for music because without it 90% of the time I don't think I'd make it though the day. It gives me a chance to close my eyes and just mellow out. :)
    That really sucks. I knew you had some difficulties, but didn't realize it was that bad.
    I've had a bad back since I was a teenager, but nothing like what you're going through.
    I feel the same way about my music. It just carries me away sometimes.
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  • gimpod
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    I feel the same way about my music. It just carries me away sometimes.

    Yea that's what I love about music it can make all the bad stuff just go away for awhile. :)
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  • specd_out
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    Damn Joey that rough. My wife is an RN and we had a scare where blood sprayed her in the face. Thankfully HIV wasnt a concern but Hepatitis was. Thankfully nothing ended up happening .

    On to the main subject, My cat tipped my RtiA5 over and it landed on my wood floor. Spilt about 3" of the veneer just above the tweeter.

    Now I have speakers attached to my tv stand so that cant happen again. I also got a new duster to clean my speakers with >:) lol not really but the cat got a good whoopin
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  • [Deleted User]
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    Well, I thought I was going to resuscitate Crown D-75a today. Replaced the two blown resistors and nothing. :/
  • jeremymarcinko
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    I hit a pedestrian with a car once...it's a scary feeling being the driver of the car too. the woman disappeared from my view after rolling up on the hood. Getting out of the car was the worst, not knowing what I was going to find. Luckily the woman only broke her leg. I wasn't cited at fault, because apparently the woman was mentally ill and wasn't supposed to be out without a guide. It was dark and rainy and she just stepped out off of the sidewalk right in front off me.
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  • Nightfall
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    Damn Joey. After reading that I feel like anything I could add to this post aren't really all that bad of experiences in comparison to what could happen.
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  • Joey_V
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    Nightfall wrote: »
    Damn Joey. After reading that I feel like anything I could add to this post aren't really all that bad of experiences in comparison to what could happen.

    Thanks bro... all better now and back to normal and thankful.

    Trying to live it up bro
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  • tonyb
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    I hit a pedestrian with a car once...it's a scary feeling being the driver of the car too. the woman disappeared from my view after rolling up on the hood. Getting out of the car was the worst, not knowing what I was going to find. Luckily the woman only broke her leg. I wasn't cited at fault, because apparently the woman was mentally ill and wasn't supposed to be out without a guide. It was dark and rainy and she just stepped out off of the sidewalk right in front off me.

    Yeah, happened to me too except I killed a 15 year old boy which still haunts me. About 20 years ago, I was driving a stake body truck with a trailer and bobcat on the back. Going into an intersection by a school at about 40 mph and the car turning left decides they want to go right in front of me. Hit the brakes and swerved to the right to avoid the car but the car kept moving. Hit it smack in the middle, pushed across the intersection against a light pole. The passenger side, which took the brunt, was a 15 year old kid on the way to school driven by his sister.....who had no license. I still see that kids face....and hands pressed up against the window in utter horror. I never got a ticket, but the other driver did. Models were made up of the intersection and vehicles and the truck and trailer were gone over by the state with a fine toothed comb. Family wanted manslaughter charges brought against me. Here in Illinois, having a CDL....your considered guilty until proven innocent. The fact that the other driver had no license and should not have been behind the wheel saved my bacon from prosecution.

    4 years later, driving the same combination, I was parked and getting ready to go when out of my side mirror I catch a lady standing between the rear of the truck and the trailer. Soon as she see's me she quickly moves behind the truck out of view. I get out to see a Pakistan woman, maybe 40 years old, just standing there like waiting for me to run her over. I ask WTF she thinks she's doing but got no response so I motioned for her to get the f**k out of there. She understood that and walked slowly across the street.

    I have since given up my CDL. Owners of companies are too cheap to maintain the trucks properly and you the driver bear the brunt of that should you get into an accident. We aren't talking traffic tickets here, we are talking jail time in this state. So screw 'em, go find someone else willing to take the risk.

    Not recent, but ranks as one of the worst days of my life.
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  • mrbiron
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    i got married........................................................................
    Where’s the KABOOM?!?! There’s supposed to be an Earth shattering KABOOM!!!
  • westmassguy
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    mrbiron wrote: »
    i got married........................................................................
    Now you've gone and done it LOL
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  • jeremymarcinko
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    It is absolutely terrifying how unpredictable our lives are. Much of my younger years was spent riding/racing atv's, dirtbikes, streetbikes. I rolled the dice every weekend with risky behavior, doing everything from motocross, hare-scambles, hillclimbs, and just being stupid on the crotch rockets, hitting the twistys of Appalachia with everything we had. I really had the immortal mentality, until I realized I really have no control over what is going to happen to me and my family. This realization was very difficult for me to accept and led to a lot of anxiety for about a year. As some of you know I consider myself to be an athletic person, or kind of a gym rat. I have taken many supplements over the years that were supposed to aid in strength and muscle gains. I have never taken anything illegal, and most of what I took came from GNC or Bodybuilding.com. Some of the more controversial supplements that I was taking was pre-workout energy boosters, such as, no xplode, c4, jack3d etc, for years. These are supposedly just caffine, niacine, in addition other ingredients that may or may not be listed. I never had any ill effects from them and against the advice from my wife and friends continued to take them. I may have developed an addiction, as I didn't want to go workout without it. I had ordered some bulk protein from bodybuilding.com and they had included some samples of a new pre-workout supplement called 1MR-vortex (1MR=one more rep). Not reading the package carefully, as it was very small print on a small package of product, I ingested the sample which couldn't have been more than a teaspoon of blue powder mix. This is a much smaller amount of product than my typical pre-workouts and I just assumed it was one serving and didn't give it a second thought. I typically would take two servings of my other pre anyways. I made my way to the local gym, and all was well. I finished my warm up and began to do some chest training on the incline bench. After my first set, I remember laying there thinking wow, this new preworkout is crap, as I had no energy and felt very weak after that exercise. I got up from the bench to add weight and BAM something was very wrong. The room started spinning and my vision became blurred or as if I couldn't focus on anything. I immediately sat down thinking that may pass out at any moment. As I sat there evaluating my condition I started to feel better after a minute, so I got up to get a drink from the fountain and BOOM the it was back and more intense. I broke out into a sweat, my heart was racing and I was freezing cold. I was reluctant to ask for help, as I didn't want the humiliation of being hauled out in a squad, I tried to call my wife so she could come get me. Well she didn't pick up so I decided to try and drive home. It wasn't far maybe 3 miles all straight, but it was the longest three miles of my life. I was moving well below the 35mph speed limit and was struggling to stay conscience and was having a hard time focusing or thinking for that matter, I was very confused. I made it home, and my wife could obviously tell something wasn't right. I tried to lay down but couldn't relax. I felt a tremendous amount of mental energy, like my head was going to just explode. Every minute or so I would feel like a was passing out or kill over at any second, and would follow by a drenching sweat and then cold chills. My wife took me to the er, thinking maybe I was having a heart attack or something. Of, course the took the standard steps and did the emergency ekg and xrays, hr monitor, and bp etc. Guess what, my ekg was normal, chest xrays normal, hr wasn't elevated, and my bp was only slightly elevated. Okay, so I should calm down right, I mean I am not gonna die today, right. I still couldn't calm down, my heart felt like it was going to come out of my chest, even though the monitor said otherwise. They kept on fluids and monitored me until about 2 am, and at that point I was feeling much better. The doc said it was just palpitations from the preworkout supplement and I was never in any real danger. Huh really. I was not convinced and for the next year I drove myself crazy trying to figure this out. I always trusted my body to tell me when something wasn't right or I was in danger, but now I couldn't do that. I became obsessed with eating right, completely cutting out caffeine and eventually alcohol. The problem was, I still could not accept what I felt was nothing. Cutting out these things made be think that I could prevent this from happening again. Not knowing what caused the episode in turn caused a lot of anxiety about it happening again. I still don't have all of the answers, but I am getting better with accepting that I am not in control and that things are going to happen. I have reintroduced caffeine and alcohol in moderation, but no preworkout supps. I still fear of this happening again but now I am trying not to let that fear influence my lifestyle choices. This has been very hard for me though.
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    About 2 years ago, my wife of 32 years filed for divorce.
    Believe me when I say that I never beat her, cheated on her, took drugs, drank (at least too much), gambled, never disappeared, always worked very hard at my job and was a good provider, was always there for her and the kids.

    It was devastated emotionally, physically, and financially.

    After that, a good thing happened. I reconnected with a girl that I casually knew in High School 38 years ago (I actually had little bit of a crush on her back then, but never really talked to her, held her hand, dated, or anything. We had some classes together and our parents were friend. She always had a boyfriend). She never married, never had kids etc. , worked very hard at her career and is now ready to retire,

    38 years later we are together. We ended up at the same place by very different routes.

    She has shown me more kindness in the first year of our relationship than I had known in 32 years or marriage.

    If you are married and you love your wife (as I did) do everything that you can to keep your family together. If it doesn't work, you will have a clear conscience that you did everything you could. And God might just throw you a bone for doing the best you could.
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  • Joey_V
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    We got a lot of great posts here. I like your story too Tim smith.

    Hey Jeremy, sorry to hear about that day. Palpitations probably was the end result but you definitely had a reaction to the preworkout.
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  • voltz
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    many things happened change me and I went down a road I never meant to go down, lost my girl friend Ginger when I was young, then when I was 29 my fiancee Andrea died from a asthma attack, the couldn't get it to break so they put her on a Ventilator, to do the breathing till it left her lungs, but that just collapsed both of her, lungs then 2 days later she hada stroke and turn pure red and after 2 days of testing they couldn't find anymore brain waves, so her mom & dad talk to me and we all new we had to let her go.
    after wards my friends drive me crazy..they meant well but I just wanted to be left alone, they kept trying to drag me out of the house, when I didnt feel like going bowling or to a movie etc.. so I sort of turn away from everyone, even when we all go to a party everyone else was married and I just felt the odd man out, I don't go around all depressed or anything just didn't fit in.
    then my best friend Shelly lost her husband & daughter, so we were drawn together and hung out a lot. Then her sister called and said she was in Arizona visiting her late husbands family and was killed in a car wreck...then she called back and said the police were calling it a suicide.. said she was drunk & depressed and they accident had to be done on purpose. I never saw any signs of this from her...

    then a buddy at work that I had worked with forever got fired for drinking, two days later as the union was working to get him back he hung himself from his garage rafters.

    Now I'm 53 no wife no kids my folks are gone and I only have my sister who lives with me, but I still happy I'm alive & healthy and have a good job. never wanted to end up here but here I am... but I still somewhat of a loner. all the gals at work call me smiley cause I'm always smiling and happy and friendly. still have a lot of good friends even if i don't drop in on them much.

    And i made a lot of friends here, many close ones and a few are like best friends I never have got to meet yet but are like my Brothers from another mother! The one thing that helped get me thru were hobbies, now my favorite hobby is audio :) thanks to all the great Polkies who made it happen for me or I would still be listen to my bose thru my cheaper old Denon.
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  • voltz
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    Wow, sorry guys did not mean to be a Buzz kill, feel like I killed the Thread. just started typing and it came out.

    But I get by by only remembering or thinking of the good things in life. lots of excellent memories...

    I remember the day I meet my fiancee Andrea, my sister works at a motel in the main lobby and I was on a 2 week shutdown at work and stop by to say hi, was sitting in the lobby talking to my sister and Karen when Andie came down stairs to get some towels and Karen asked her what was on her rear? She was like what??
    so she turn around to show us her back side, and Karen yelled "There you go Darryl there's a great but shot! She turned pure red and ran back up stairs.

    she stop by the house that night & the next day to see my sister and the next and the next till my sister finally pointed out the fact she was coming over every night to see me :)

    The pain of losing is worth the Joy of remembering! Still a life worth living!
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