Today has been one of the hardest days of my life

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  • Paul in Canada
    Paul in Canada Posts: 178
    edited November 2007
    When life seems to suck its hard to image that you will be happy again but I'm sure if you look back over your life you have had some times when things were going pretty **** and you made it though them. Keep your head up, take the high road with the X, and always do what is best for the kids. You will have better days ahead, hang in there.
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  • steveinaz
    steveinaz Posts: 19,536
    edited November 2007
    Tough situation you're in brother. Sorry to hear it. Prayers sent.
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  • shawn474
    shawn474 Posts: 3,047
    edited November 2007
    Prayers are with everyone involved.

    Shawn
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  • shadowofnight
    shadowofnight Posts: 2,735
    edited November 2007
    Good Luck on both issues
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  • Serendipity
    Serendipity Posts: 6,975
    edited November 2007
    Wish you good luck.
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  • daboyz
    daboyz Posts: 5,207
    edited November 2007
    Good luck bud and prayers are with you
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  • unc2701
    unc2701 Posts: 3,587
    edited November 2007
    Good luck, and keep your eyes open for a phase II or III from this company:
    http://www.villageventures.com/stuff/contentmgr/files/76866c897768435fa02b9ee27f82a5a3/pdf/0604_biolex_therapeutics.pdf

    Allegedly, it's just as effective (or more so) than current therapy, but with a much better safety profile.
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  • avguytx
    avguytx Posts: 1,628
    edited November 2007
    Good luck, Ben, and you and your family will be in my prayers.
    Richard? Who's your favorite Little Rascal? Alfalfa? Or is it........................Spanky?.................................Sinner.
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  • JimBRICK
    JimBRICK Posts: 1,543
    edited November 2007
    I'm not a praying man Ben, but my good thoughts go out to you and your own. Try to keep on the positive side and good luck with your treatment
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  • MSALLA
    MSALLA Posts: 1,602
    edited November 2007
    Sound like you are having a rough time. Your still young. Keep fighting through it and it will work out. Bet of luck to you.
    Michael


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  • Systems
    Systems Posts: 14,873
    edited November 2007
    Dude, best of luck to you for the next year!
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  • Fireman32
    Fireman32 Posts: 4,845
    edited November 2007
    Best of luck to you Ben.
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  • schwarcw
    schwarcw Posts: 7,335
    edited November 2007
    Ben, I'm so sorry to hear about the tough times that you are going through. Please take care of yourself for your children. I'm going to pray for your health and the safety of your children and the X. Good luck!
    Carl

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  • disneyjoe7
    disneyjoe7 Posts: 11,435
    edited November 2007
    Good Luck Ben, and try to stay positive is my motto. :)

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  • MillerLiteScott
    MillerLiteScott Posts: 2,561
    edited November 2007
    Wrong Thread
    I like speakers that are bigger than a small refrigerator but smaller than a big refrigerator:D
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  • treitz3
    treitz3 Posts: 18,980
    edited November 2007
    Huh?
    ~ In search of accurate reproduction of music. Real sound is my reference and while perfection may not be attainable? If I chase it, I might just catch excellence. ~
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  • ben62670
    ben62670 Posts: 15,969
    edited November 2007
    WOW. Thanks guys

    Today the girls left. Saying good bye was torture. If they were taken it would have been much easier (anger is much easier than guilt), but letting them go was brutal. I know I am doing the right thing, but knowing that I was allowing pain for my children now was better than a long term struggle with their mother (that would turn into much resentment, and more pain for the kids). Seeing the confusion in my 4 yo daughters face when I was telling her I wouldn't see her for a while was ripping. I have broken many bones including neck, and back, but today has been the most pain I have had to deal with ever. I have never had emotional pain turn into physical pain like it did today. My whole body hurt. I can't imagine how tough it would be to lose a child permanently. The older I get the more I realize how insensitive I could be to situations that I have not gone through. Reflecting what Jesus has done for us on the cross sure did help put things into perspective.

    I want to thank all of you for your prayers. Sorry my PM responses were so short. I had a lot of sharing going on, and I am just wiped out. I do feel much better than earlier. They are gone now. Their is a couple of goals that have to be reached, it is time to switch gears, and get to my girls!
    Ben
    Please. Please contact me a ben62670 @ yahoo.com. Make sure to include who you are, and you are from Polk so I don't delete your email. Also I am now physically unable to work on any projects. If you need help let these guys know. There are many people who will help if you let them know where you are.
    Thanks
    Ben
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  • tonyb
    tonyb Posts: 32,950
    edited November 2007
    Ben,best of luck to you.You'll be in my prayers for sure pal.Be by your kids,do what you have to do.Crap...don't need to tell ya....you allready know.Best wishes bud.
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  • snow
    snow Posts: 4,337
    edited November 2007
    Good luck Ben. I wish the best for you.



    REGARDS SNOW
    Well, I just pulled off the impossible by doing a double-blind comparison all by myself, purely by virtue of the fact that I completely and stupidly forgot what I did last. I guess that getting old does have its advantages after all :D
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  • joeparaski
    joeparaski Posts: 1,865
    edited November 2007
    It's a tough time for sure, but have faith that things will get better, and they will.

    Joe
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  • lightman1
    lightman1 Posts: 10,788
    edited November 2007
    Damn dude! I'll drive down and help you move. I mean it!
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  • Rivrrat
    Rivrrat Posts: 2,101
    edited November 2007
    Best wishes dude.

    On a positive note, I know a couple of people that have gone the same route as you and came out pretty good on the other side. I'm sure you'll be as successful with your treatment.
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  • bigaudiofanatic
    bigaudiofanatic Posts: 4,415
    edited November 2007
    Prayers Sent Good Luck Man
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  • audiobliss
    audiobliss Posts: 12,518
    edited November 2007
    I'm definitely keeping you and your family in my prayers! The Lord works in mysterious ways, and often times we can't see what His plan is, but having faith that HE does have a plan and does know how things are going to work out is certainly reassuring. Though it's also hard to keep in mind all the time.

    Stay strong, brother; stay close to the Lord and He'll certainly stay close to you.
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  • agfrost
    agfrost Posts: 2,425
    edited November 2007
    Be well, Ben.

    Jay
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  • dudeinaroom
    dudeinaroom Posts: 3,609
    edited November 2007
    You know, my boys are as old as your girls and I could not even imagine going through that. Just seeing your post above is gut wrenching. I know I would be crying in that situation, and I usually don't cry for anything. I really really hope all works out for you.
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  • mrbigbluelight
    mrbigbluelight Posts: 9,673
    edited November 2007
    Ben, you mentioned, "They are gone now.".

    If I may offer a slight correction, no they're not.
    They're still around, they're just not there with you right now.

    They still got their Pop, it's just a few more miles that are separating you.

    Do well for yourself for now, and you'll do well for them.
    Sal Palooza
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  • Joe08867
    Joe08867 Posts: 3,919
    edited November 2007
    You are in my prayers Ben. Sorry you have so much going on in your life.

    Blue Light is right though, they are not gone just a little further then you would like.

    I hope your health returns and things start to turn around soon.

    It is hard to do the right thing sometimes, I think you should be commended for what you are doing here. Hang in there man.
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  • GSRBOB
    GSRBOB Posts: 172
    edited November 2007
    Man it tears me up and i don't even know u. My prayers r with u and ur family.
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  • PolkThug
    PolkThug Posts: 7,532
    edited November 2007
    Do you have any legal visitation?
    Never Forget
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