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Fongolio wrote: »

For the first 18 or so years I never touched alcohol either. I was never a booze pig like I was a drug pig. I smoked pot before I ever drank a drop and could always take it or leave it. If there were no drugs I'd rather abstain than drink and get drunk. Never liked being drunk and didn't like the feeling that booze gave me unless it was combined with a lot of drugs. I know the program literature and what it says about alcohol. My first glass of wine while clean was by accident. I took a drink of what was supposed to be alcohol free wine. It wasn't. Someone had given me the wrong glass. I thought "oh no what's going to happen? I've blown all those years of sobriety" but you know what? Nothing happened. Now I don't recommend this to any recovering addict but I thought what the hell. The deed is done and it was some very fine expensive wine. I sipped away at it for two hours. Didn't have another nor did I want one. Didn't have another for 6 months or so. No cravings either. Christmas dinner. Are you having wine? Hmmm ok one glass. Same thing. Sipped it for an hour and didn't want another. I had had a similar experience with quitting smoking many year ago. My brother was getting married and he was giving anyone who wanted it a fine Cuban cigar. I thought well, I'll try it and if it makes me want to smoke cigarettes I'll stop. It didn't. No desire to smoke at all. But once a month or so I enjoy a fine cigar and about every two months or so a glass of wine. Only fine cigars and only really good red wine. I enjoy them both for the flavor NOT any kind of buzz. I've seen many people crash and burn by having "just one drink". For whatever reason (maybe it's the long period of time and having worked the steps properly and exorcised my demons) I have no desire whatsoever to return to any of my old ways. I haven't had a craving to use in over 10 years. It's about 4 years now that I've had a glass of wine now and then and had no crash. Am I playing with fire? Maybe, but it sure doesn't feel like it. Have I used any drugs for the purpose of getting high or altering my mind or mood? None whatsoever. Do I recommend this to any addict. Not on your life. I haven't even mentioned any of this at a meeting (I almost never go anymore). If I thought (or any of the people around me because they know I'm an addict) for one second the wine was going to lead to anything else I would stop it in a heartbeat. The cigars too, or anything else for that matter (we'll leave audio addiction out of this because I chose to remain in denial) I'd stop in an instant. Your question was very valid and I don't share this answer lightly. I don't consider myself cured and safe to experiment but for whatever reason I have no urges to use at all. I'd say I'm lucky but honestly, I think I've just grown up.

Kelvin

Kelvin,

Thanks so much for answering that question in the manner I intended. I can see how it could have been misconstrued.

I'm kind of floored right now by your honesty. Thanks for that. I can't help but feel a little unease for you. You know more than me what *usually* happens to those who gradually get away from the program and the spiritual principles. I spoke at a VA hospital not too long ago and there were guys there that had many, many years clean previously. When I asked what made them return to active addiction the most common answer was, "I stopped going to meetings and eventually picked up." Hopefully, this will not be the case with you. I really think you should make a meeting, though

Bill

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